Final Day of Practicum I

Yestarday was my last day of the four-weeks practicum. My 45 Year 5 students had touched my heart deeply. I went for the last hour of Mathematics class with them around 11:00am yesterday. As I opened the door, the room was dark and all I could see was empty tables and three lines of students at the back and a conductor. As I entered the class, they started to sing Auld Lang Syne in Bahasa version. My eyes were filling with tears but I managed not to drop one. I gave them a big applause after they had finished singing and joked about them trying to make me cry.

I continued teaching them Mathematics and on the last ten minutes, I gave them presents that I had prepared and managed to take photos with them. And by the time my lesson was up, my table was filled with presents. All of them approached me, asking for signature and phone number. I was thinking, I'm not a celebrity. I'm just a teacher. Yet, they're acting like I am one.

It was really difficult to leave that day. This devilish yet cute bunch of munchies had really put an impact on me in just a short period of time. I'm really gonna miss them. :(

The boys of my class

The girls of my class

And All Hell Broke Loose...

Earlier this morning, I had an hour session with my Year 5 students. Mathematics class.

I guess the one thing I did wrong.. very wrong is to teach-in their class the previous hour before my class.

It was a bit of a relaxation Mathematics session with some quizzes. When I start my lesson, all hell broke loose. My students seemed to be really hyped up and restless.

Time slowly passes by and they are getting more noisy. Slowly, I start to lose grip of controlling them.

And to make matter worse, my lecturer came in to observe unexpectedly!!

"Die! Die! Die!" are the only thing that goes through my mind at that moment.

The class noise level was getting worse every single minutes and at its peak when it was group work activity.

When my lecturer decided to leave early, I know my observation result would be disasterous!

And it did...

His note to me was:

I left early because I cannot stand the noise by your students. You lost grip of class control today and worse, some students are screaming when doing group activity. You better find a alternative way to control your student before my nect observation this Wednesday...

And I lost my voice.. Oh, man. I feel like jumping from Taipei 101 right now.. =_=

Practical Week 2

This is my second week of practical but it's also my first official week to teach some classes. Well, two classes to be exact.

On the first week, I was given a schedule of my classes. Seven periods of Mathematics classes with Year 5A and three periods of Physical Education with Year 2D. Before that, a brief explanation on the class grouping system in this school; there are five classes in each Year, ranging from A to D for Bahasa medium and one class for Chinese Medium. Class A being the best to Class D that consists of remedial students.

My first day with 45 of my Year 5 students was like "teaching to the walls". I guess this is because I'm still new to them and well.. let just say their devilish side have not unveil themselves. After few more days, I have accidentally found the key and unlocked heir devilish side. They were pretty naughty but n a good way. At least they listen to me when I'm teaching and I am impressed by how good they are and how fast they can catch up with my lesson.

My first day with my Year 2 students on the other hand was a disaster! Controlling 35 students was a pain in the neck for me. Throughout the hour, I was shouting non-stop and nearly broke my voice box. And to top it up, my lecturer was supposed to observe me during my Mathematics class the hour right after. My mentor had to help me to control them to avoid any casualites. =.="

When I went to the staff room, most of the teachers was laughing at me as my shouting was so loud, some of them heard me all the way from the staff room. Gosh~ I should have taken it more seriously when they said that class is hard to control.

Now that the week had ended, I look forward to a day of relaxation before starting the new week. I need to get a hold of how to control my Year 2 students before they break my voice box permanently. xP

A Weird Moment

Okay.. There's this really funny thing that happened few days ago; Wednesday to be exact when a few of my coursemates and I decided to collect data for our coursework regarding Network Analysis.

Our coursework needs us to stand on a four intersections road and count cars. Yes, you're reading this correctly. COUNT CARS.. Count, analyze and redesign the road to improve the flow. Something like that. xP

So, four of us met in the morning around 9:30am or so cause it is not a peak hour where you'll get traffic jam. Hence, it'll be easier for us to count cars passing by. We are working smart here. LOL!

When we reached there, we chose a junction each. The trick is to choose an input (where the cars come from; specific junction) and from that input, we need to count the possible output (cars entering) via the three junctions.

Ah~ Malaysians; you know how they are. When there's an accident, they'll slow down and take a look of what is happening. So, this event where four ladies are standing near the road taking cameras, camcoders and stuff, apalagi? Sure slows down and takes a good stare at you and your actions. xS

Few funny moments were when we attempted to take pictures and videos of our presence there as proof that we are not cheating or making up those data, some even slowed down or showed the peace sign. =.= See how friendly Malaysians are? Hahaha.. But I don't think these actions are counted as being friendly. One even stepped on his emergency brake near me when I was about to snap a picture. Scaryy...

All those while, standing near the road, I guess I received stares from many people which for sure, I won't receive those much in a month. So paiseh...

The lecturer better be accepting our data. I don't wanna stand near roadside anymore!!

Sidenote: I was thinking, if one of us wore super sexy clothes that day, wouldn't there be any possibility of an accident happening? xP

Unloading...

Finally! Horrorful day finally be gone!

One month of working on the coursework project again and again and again and again.

We generated around 4, 5, 6? teaching materials just to teach one simple topic: Improper Fractions for Year 5. If you refers to the Year 5 Mathematics book, this topic only have a page worth of exercise. And to think that becoming a teacher is easy? Think again!

Me and my partner spent sleepless nights within this one month doing the projects. Generating ideas and getting few rejections from the Head of Mathematics Department over and over again. She really has high expectation on the coursework and to meet her expectation, we got to deal with the pressure and also some uban that starts to pop up more and more within our hair.

The last few hours before submitting the project, we finalize the paperworks and ended up sleeping around 4am. That morning's lecture started at 7:30am! Luckily, I didn't fish in the Miss Tan's lecture. If not, sure get killed by her. xP

Gosh~ gotta stop sleeping so late. I'm becoming a panda myself. Positive side though, I lost 2kg from all the pressure of the coursework. LOL. I know, it's bad for health. Bad, bad for health. Will try to get proper rest within this one week break.

After the one week break, I'll be starting my Practicum or similar to Industrial Training for 4 weeks. Warggghh.. I do hope I'll be able to handle all the students. I'm scared that I might end up strangling one. Muahaha. Just kidding. I won't do that. I'll lose my degree for it.

Pray for me guys! I'm starting to lose me-self. (x.x)

Birthday Reload

To all the DiGi users out there, I'm sure you know the birthday bonus right? Well, since it's 50% top-up for every top-up that you have made between 3 days before and after your birthday, what else? I just reload RM100 and my collagemates grabbed this opportunity as well by asking me to reload for them and transferring all the credits. X) Haha.. Anyway, since I'm super loaded with credit now, I just messaged Kim in Aus the whole night since my streamyx was broken. *shrungs*

We talked bout lots of stuff including the appearance of perverts in Aus. Weird~ hahaha.. I'm pretty sure that Malaysia does not have perverts and even if there is, it would not be as weird and creepy as those in Aus desribed by Kim.. So, be careful Kim!

Ah~ Monday's a public holiday. Feeling free at the moment. I'm going to spend the whole Saturday doing nothing that needs my mind to think. No assignments and no typing.. erm.. wait, I'm typing alright. I mean no stress for today. I need to get my mind away from all that just for today and by tomorrow, I'll be back to courseworks, projects, and assignments that mostly due next Friday. :S

Blurp~ blurp~ blurp~ Feeling like drowning myself in a pool right now. xP

7 years... Finally resolved

This is the day, a day that I will remember forever
The day that the feeling that I had kept for 7 years

Has finally been untangled
The day I braced myself up to face the worst outcome possible
Courageous enough to confess by message but not a call
Praying and praying

For the best of what God can give me as an answer

The reason of why I had fallen in love with him?
For he is a kind-hearted guy
A faithful follower of God
Not one bit that I have regretted having this feeling

Not one bit I will regret to confess this feeling

Moments later, God had answered my prayer
And I thank God for letting him know

The best way not to stab my heart
It ended with sudden drops of tears

Not of sorrow nor happiness

But that one sigh of relief
For I can finally start to let him go


~6 March 2009; 11:15am~


** If you had a deep feeling for someone, like what others like to say, BRACE UP YOURSELF and tell him/her how you feel about them. Sure that it might be painful but wondering of the answer gives much greater pain than the moment you confess. God Bless.