Losing Sight of The Light

It's been 3 days since I started my practicum a.k.a field training. I'm starting to lose the light and dumping myself into the darkness of negative thoughts. The schedules and extra classes on Saturdays. The naughty pupils and how much extra efforts that I would need to give in to make sure that they have the knowledge that they needed. The special case pupils and ways to overcome their difficulties in learning. The Action Research proposal that will due soon..



What if I fail to contribute knowledge into my pupils? What if I fail to find the right subject for my action research? What if I break down mentally and physically? What if I closes my mind and will to continue on? What if I fail myself? What if I fail to get through this?



I am thinking to myself "Maybe I am just afraid. Maybe I don't want to go through this" Man~ I'm becoming pessimist. Oh Merciful God, please guide me through this.

New Sem 2010

Ah~ 2010's finally here and that means back to hitting my head on the book again. Well, after a long holiday, trying to start your rusty brain would take a while. Basically, I went Spring cleaning on Saturday before staying in my new room on Sunday. Can't believe that this is my fourth year.


Anyway, we only got 2 course to complete for this sem. One is action research which is really important as it decides whether we get Hons or just a degree. Another course is Counseling.. whaaa~ counseling. Psychological stuff...


I went to the administration block and was thrilled to see my CGPA. result 3.82! Wooohooo! Now my total accumulated point is over 3.5. At least, that's an achievement. ^_^


The 3 months practicum is coming soon.. Sigh~ and we got to complete an action research to qualify for Hons. double sigh~ I still have no idea on what to research about and getting the topic for the research the sooner, the better! Help!!~


Basically, the first week was pretty laid back.. I think.. ROFL. Talking about afternoon lecture, everyone was not used to it that when the lecture began, almost everyone started "fishing". Even the most gentleman of the class.. XP Oh yeah! We finally have an air-conditioned lecture room! Praise the Lord! ^_^


As always, campus line blocks Facebook.. well.. it tried its hardest to block and most of us were able to penetrate the blocking system easily. LOL~ It tried it hardest to block us and ended up dead on Wednesday... which means we do not have any freaking line! Not even to check our assignment task. Sheesh~ So, I am thinking of whether to apply for broadband.. Freaking line #%&@^#


It's Sunday and hopefully this coming week would be better in terms of Internet line. Aja aja fighting!

Family Trip 2009

Well, suppose to blog this right after I came back from KL but I guess that I am too lazy to. LOL~

Anyway, for this year's family trip, we went to Sabah on November and KL on December. This is the first time I step foot on Sabah and let say the scenery away from its city was really breath taking. We went to Labuan to legally snuck in some alcohol.. Hehe~ Everyone is allowed to bring 1L of alcohol out from Sabah so I chose Chivas of 12 years. Cost me RM75. The 18 years too expensive, RM120+ XD



We also went to Manukan Island for 4 hours which resulted in bad sunburn but all is worth it where I got to swim with and feed the fish! Lotsa rare fish and some rainbow colored one too! I even managed to snorkel! Wanted to try the parachuting activity but nobody wants to accompany me~ *stares at my bro and Jo*



Sabah's really breath taking. We rented a car and went to the foot hill of Mount Kinabalu. So cold and breezy! Would love to stay there! ^_^ We even shopped from the natives there. Super bargain~ hehe~ Oh and we also went to the Memorial Park in Kundasang. Reminded me how many people were killed in the war there and how dreaded must the situation be at that time.



Overall, Sabah is an awesome place to get away from work and all those modern facilities. Just walk around and enjoy its scenery. However, food and parking is wayyyy expensive here. Much more than Kuching and KL. If you are into shopping, then Sabah is not for you. Limited choices really. That's why we went to KL! XP



Ok, on my KL trip chapter, we arrived on 8th and went to Genting on 9th! This time, I didn't manage to go for outdoor theme park since everyone is into the casino. Yikes~ Wasn't interested on its outdoor games anymore cause I guess the maintenance sucks~ Since they changed their management, everything seems less. Most rides are closed and it just not as fun as previously. They even remove the OSIM chair from the cinema! NOooOoo.. The casino's great though. It can be addictive but I just lost my money.. err.. I mean played for fun. Even got I.D checked everytime I went in. The guard thought I'm 17-19 years of age. Whahaha! Made me so happy~ Syok sendiri la~ Hehe!



Back to KL, what else? Shopping time! SOGO, Berjaya Times, Mid Valley, 1 Utama, BB, Sungei Wang.. Reminded me of how I kept plucking my money out from my wallet.. Huhuhu~ We even managed to go to JUSCO Bukit Tinggi at Shah Alam thanks to a friend of bro.



We used MAS Airlines to come home. Luxuries food!! There's Ferrero, fruit cake, guava juice and even Baskin Robbin 31 ice cream for dessert! So heavenly! Hehe~



For more of pictures, check out my Facebook photo gallery. Lazy to update the pics here since it's super slow to me. Merry Christmas everyone! Be jolly! ^^

Clicky for bigger pic ^^

Relaxation

Have you notice that the time passed by quickly? We're at the end of 2009!


After finishing three final papers which killed me from one to another, I have completed my sixth semester!!


I'm sOoo in a holiday mood and can't wait to meet up with the rest!


Going to Sabah this 25th too. YAYYY!


Oh ya, I have gotten info regarding my next year's practicum venue for 3 months starting from second week of January: SK Garland, Batu Kawa. Love the venue but not too fond of the observers: Dr. Rahmah for Mathematics and Madam Mitty for English. Oh whyyyyy.... =.="


Then again....


Holidayyyy! Sabah!!! KL!!!

Facebook Addiction Disorder

Looks like I've abandoned my blog for pretty long. Heck~ Not just me. Practically, everyone who is on their third year or final year is doing so. *making excuse* XD

My first final paper is on this coming Wednesday and I haven't start revising for that paper yet and barely finish reading for next week's. I think I lost a screw somewhere.. >_<"

All blame FACEBOOK! *blame self-control!* Last time I checked, Facebook holds over like 120million users? And I'm one of them! and also all of my friends. It's almost 5 times the population of Malaysian! How's that? Not a shocking fact actually..

Recently, I heard a news saying about how a wife got kicked out of the house by the husband who claimed that her wife often wakes up in the midnight to harvest her crops in a Facebook game. This is not unbelievable to me as I've seen these symptoms before somewhere. So, I browsed around to find some information regarding Facebook and I stumbled to a new disorder called Facebook Addiction Disorder.

Oh man.. I think I'm having the symptoms.. I can quit but my Happy Farm! My Friends for Sale! *got dragged away*

See you guys in two to three weeks time! After the finals I mean... *crickets' sound*

Awww shrugs! No one's around.. T_T

P/s: Those italic blue-colored text is by my alter ego.. muahaha~

Craving for Bing! Coffee

After rejuvination for a whole week, lectures start again..

Walao eh... This week has been a hectic week for me. I only had 4 hours average of sleep everyday. Slept at 3:00am then woke up around 7:00am in a startled condition, fearing I might be late for my 7:30am lecture. Sometimes, I had to kept my eyes wide awake starting from the first lecture. Sometimes, my energy lasted til the 11:00am lectures where I started yawning really hard and gave my lecture the dull look on her presentation (mind that I sit in front of the class; sitting straight and absorbing all the presentations in that state of mind was not easy for me).

Funniest thing happened on Tuesday or was it Wednesday? It was the 11:00am lecture and Dr. Rahmah came in for her lecture as usual. 30 minutes after, I started yawning and gave her the dull look AGAIN.. Then, she started to comment about pyschological interpretation that she knows who is paying attention and who's not. I thought I was getting the hint from her that I'm not paying attention (and it's already not easy for me to stay focus). When I turned around, I saw most of my coursemates were yawning and having teary eyes due to the yawning.. I guess that hint goes to everyone, not just me.. Imagine the whole class yawning..

Hopefully, next week would be the last week for assignments to torture me and the rest of my coursemates as all projects, assignments and reports are to due next week. Will rejunivate during this weekend and rush some of the assignments to evade burning midnight oil again.. Cause last night, I caused my roomie to move to another room to sleep just because I was awake with me group members finishing on an assignment. Gomen, Christine.. You can torture me by playing the piano loudly for the next two weeks... ^_^"

Oh.. relaxation started this afternoon actually where we massively went to Sya's house for lunch in celebration for Raya. Everyone.. wait.. well most of us were there just to take that one-day-away-from-assignment moments. Lovely lunch indeed. :)

Tomorrow, it's the Mooncake Festival. Going for steamboat with my coursemates. I don't like the eating part but I just can't miss the excitement waiting for me then. I'm that type of person who will try not to miss any exciting events with friends.. LOL..

Arggghhh!! When can I reduce my weight then? I'm so going on rice and meat strike after this! X3 but craving for mocha with caramel at the moment! I want to go to Bing! Coffee... XD

Post note:

Happy Birthday or Belated Birthday to the following people (which I can remember of):

27th : Chen Xiao Fang a.k.a blur blur girl

28th : Siew Sing Ya

30th : Hanaa the Skype Queen, Jack Joannes a.k.a Mr. Grasshopper and James Wong

2nd: Alexis Sim

3rd: Terence Siew

2010 Holidays

Announced and for reminder:


13 March to 21 March First Mid Term Break
5 June to 20 June Mid Year Break
4 Sept to 12 Sept Second Mid Term Break
20 Nov to 2 January Year End Break

Seems like the holiday is getting shorter and at weirder time.. =__="