Where Do I Stand?

Grown, graduated and working.

This is a phase of life right?

So why do I hesistate?

Where does the uneasy feeling comes from?

Wonder what is lacking.

Where do I stand???

Wish I could read the future. =3=

Stages of Sleepiness

Stumbled into an interesting fact:

Oh, I have been through all six stages! Especially the 'Extremely Hyper' stage!

Doodle's credit goes: loodledoodlesz.tumblr

Because of You

Let yesterday go
and begin to live this day.
Your past is not your identity.
You, living now, is your identity.

Because of you countless thousands will have their place
In a chain of events that would not otherwise exist,
Just as a butterfly flapping its wings in Japan
Can set off a hurricane in New York.
Because you're you, a cat may purr of a life may be saved.

There will be smiles
and laughter
and joy.

Your are more than you know.
:)

V.O.S - One Person (한사람)

Song:한사람 (One Person)
Performed by: V.O.S
CREDIT: hangul by http://www.lyricsmoon.com, translation by http://littleariel13.wordpress.com


ROMANIZATION:
geu dae neun cham go ma un han sa ram
na man bo beun ba bo gat eun sa ram
go gaer dol lyeo do sum gyeo bwa do mo reun cheog hae bwa do
eon je na nae gyeot e han sa ram

na e ge neun son nae mir eo ju deon
nun mul jit neun nar eo ru man ji deon
geu dae neun so jung han sa ram
nae ga a kkyeo jur sa ram
nae ga seum ttwi ge ha neun yu il han sa ram

go ma wo yo geu dae ra neun han sa ram nae ge wa jwo seo
sa rang hae yo geu dae heul lin nun mur da gam ssa jul kke yo
kkog jab eun u ri du son noh ji mal gi ro hae yo
geu dae man bol ge yo ji geum cheo reom

geu dae neun cham a reum da un sa ram
na man bo myeon nun mul jit neun sa ram
ha neur i bo nae jun seon mur nae ga ji kyeo jul ge yo
geu dae man it da myeon na haeng bok ha ni kka

go ma wo yo geu dae ra neun han sa ram nae ge wa jwo seo
sa rang hae yo geu dae heul lin nun mur da gam ssa jul kke yo
kkog jab eun u ri du son noh ji mal gi ro hae yo
geu dae man bol ge yo ji geum cheo reom
eo tteon mo jin se sang do da i gyeo nael kke yo
geu dae man nae gyeot e it da myeon

nan mid eo yo i se sang ha na ppun in na ui han sa ram
yak sok hae yo dan han beon ui sa rang geu dae ppun i jyo
du son e dam gin u ri sa rang ji kyeo nael kke yo
geu dae man bol ge yo cheo eum cheo reom
yeong won hi geu dae man sa rang hae yo

TRANSLATION:
You are one person to be so thankful of
The foolish person who looks only at me
Even when I turn away, even when I try to hide
Even when I try to pretend I don’t now
One person who is always by my side

Who always held out her hands for me
Who comforted the crying me
You’re a precious person
The person I will take care of
The only person that makes my heart race

Thank you
That one person who is you has come to me
I love you
Your flowing tears, I will cover them all
Let us not let go of our tightly holding hands
I will look only at you, just like now

You are such a beautiful person
The person that sheds tears when she looks only at me
The gift from above
I will protect you
Because as long as I have you, I’m happy

Thank you
That one person who is you has come to me
I love you
Your flowing tears, I will cover them all
Let us not let go of our tightly holding hands
I will look only at you, just like now

Whatever kind of harsh world it is, I will overcome it
As long as you are by my side

Believe in me
My one and only person in this world
I promise you
My once in a lifetime love is only you
I will protect this love of ours filling our hands
I will look only at you, like the first time

I only love you forever

V.O.S - I Didn't Know (사랑할 줄은 몰랐어)

Song: 사랑할줄은몰랐어 (I didn't know that I'd fall in love)
Performed by: V.O.S
CREDIT: littleariel13@wordpress, http://littleariel13.wordpress.com

ROMANIZATION:
Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo
Nae ga byeon hal jul mol la sseo
Jeong mal ba bo cheo reom u yeon cheo reom geu dae
Nan man na ge dwaen na bwa

Him gyeo un nal deu re chi chin nae ge
Eo neu saen ga jeom jeom da ga wa jun geu daen
Na ye ga seu meul ddwi ge ha ne
Eo saek han geu dae ye cheot in sa e
Eo ul li j a neul geo ra saeng gak haet deon nae ma eu mi
I je ya heun deul li na bwa

Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo
Nae ga byeon hal jul mol la sseo
Geu dae ye nun bi che ma eum so ge
Bba jyeo ga go i sseo
Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo
I reo ke dwael jul mol la sseo
Jeong mal ba bo cheo reom u yeon cheo reom geu dae
Nan man na ge dwaen na bwa

Han beon ssik du beon ssik bol ddae ma da
Eo neu saen ga jeom jeom keo jyeo ga neun geu dae (geu dae)
Na ye shim jang eul ddwi ge ha ne
Geu to rok ba ra deon na ye sa rang
O raet dong an ggu me seo na sang sang haet deon geu dae mo seup
I je ya bol su in na bwa

Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo nae ga byeon hal jul mol la sseo
Geu dae ye nun bi che ma eum so ge bba jyeo ga go i sseo
Sa rang hal jul reun mol la sseo i reo ke dwael jul mol la sseo
Jeong mal ba bo cheo reom u yeon cheo reom geu dae
Nan man na ge dwaen na bwa

Nu neul ga ma do nae ge neun geu dae man bo yeo yo
Deo i sang heun deul li ji an ke neol ji kyeo jul ggeo ya
Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo nae mam da jul jul mol la sseo
A mu ri cha ma do geu dae hyang hae dal lyeo ga go i sseo
Sa rang hal ju reun mol la sseo geu dae il ju reun mol la sseo
Jeong mal un myeong ga teun in yeon cheo reom geu dae
Sa rang ha ge dwae na bwa

TRANSLATION:

I didn’t know that I’d fall in love
I didn’t know that I’d change
It really seems I’ve come to meet you
in a foolish, coincident way

When I was worn out by tough days
slowly coming close before I realized it
you make my heart race
At the first awkward impression of you
I thought we weren’t meant to be
It seems I’ve shaken off that kind of heart just now

I didn’t know that I’d fall in love
I didn’t know that I’d change
Your eyes looking at me
Deep inside my heart, I’m sinking in
I didn’t know that I’d fall in love
I didn’t know that I’d become like this
It really seems I’ve come to meet you
in a foolish, coincident way

Every once, every twice I meet you
Slowly your image is growing bigger before I realize it
You make my heart race
The love that I’ve hoped for like that
Your image that I’ve been imagining even in my dreams for long
It seems I can see it just now

I didn’t know that I’d fall in love, didn’t know that I’d change
Deep inside my heart, I’m sinking into your eyes looking at me
I didn’t know that I’d fall in love, didn’t know that I’d become like this
It really seems I’ve come to meet you
in a foolish, coincident way

Even when I close my eyes, I can see only you
I will not waver anymore, I will protect you
I didn’t know that I’d fall in love, didn’t know that I’d give all my heart
I’m running toward you without holding anything back
I didn’t know that I’d fall in love, didn’t know that it’d be you
It really seems through a fate that is like a coincidence
I’ve come to love you

http://littleariel13.wordpress.com/2011/06/15/사랑할-줄은-몰랐어 -i-didnt-know-that-id-fall-in-love-v-o-s-han-rom-eng/

First Working Sunday

Working in the education field, never would I expect to receive an emergency work call on a Sunday. YESSS!! A friggin SUNDAY!! Of course, it is not related to pupils but rather admin work... and to top it all off, I had the worst luck in the whole world today! Almost could not make it back to my rental place. =_="'

Despite it all, that's life right? Oh well, after a good whine, time to move on! Chiong ah!!!

All In A Day's Work

Broke a record today by marking over 1200 questions. Thank God it's multiple answers! I was mumbling As to Ds the whole afternoon and marked the books to the point that my memory failed me. LOL.. 2000 more to go! >.<

The good news is that this coming Friday is a holiday! A motivation boost indeed!

Life's All Good

Today marks the second month of me working. Actually, I was kind of suprised of making it this far since I started this journey with one hell of a bumpy ride. Now, I am getting used to my daily routine here:

wake up --> bath --> work, teach, scold, coach --> bath --> quick afternoon nap (Mon&Wed), cram activities (Tue&Thu) --> bath --> dinner --> work, sit in front of the lappie
throughout the night, socialize with the world --> sleep

Eeeepps, I can even memorize the whole process without any schedule. Heck, I would even automatically wake up around 6a.m. during weekends. LOL. Life's treating me good here. Colleagues have been treating me well and I am beginning to gain back my passion to be a good teacher especially towards my Year 5 pupils. They're unbelievably adorable when you get to know them better!!


Currently am focusing myself to work and hopefully, I can still keep my study spirit in the jar to continue my study 4 years later after my contract with the government is due. Praise the Lord!

Graduation!

Ok, I have been neglecting my blog for quite some time. After all those ups and downs in the sea called life, I have finally managed to crawl myself back here to blog about it. Up first and one of the foremost important event in my life, GRADUATION! I have finally graduated!!!

Being the pioneer group of PISMP *cough* the *cough* white rat *cough* group *cough*, the convocation ceremony could not be more grand. Venue? Putrajaya International Convention Centre! 477 Mathematicians had their graduation on the morning of 17th April 2011, including me! *proud*

White teddy from dearest mom and green froggie from bro and future da-sao!

Not to forget, let's throw our mortar board!

With a degree at hand, shall I aim for Masters next?

Enlightment

This morning, I received a link from Cindy. It's a song called "You are for Me" by Kari Jobe. Listening to this song over and over again with my eyes closed, I felt that God was right beside me. I was quite sure He was and He whispered to me to "Hang on" like what my mom have been telling me the last few days. I think I felt him patting me on my head before He left. Imagination? I have no idea.. but it felt really real.


Then, tears just run down my cheeks. It's a mixed feeling but I am pretty sure I felt the feeling of relieved being in there. No more giving up to depression for I will hang on. For He will not forsake me in my weakness, I should not be giving up this easily.


I also know that He is not the only one who will not forsake me in my weakness. My mother, my brother, my relatives have been there by my side too to help me overcoming this obstacle. Of course, to my dear friends too. Thanks for not forsaking me in my weakness. I really am grateful that you guys tried to cheer me up in every way!~ ♥

Being Homesick

This is going to be quite an emotional/whiny post. So, if you plan on calling me ungrateful or to judge me in any sort of negative way, I suggest you to stop reading and just exit this browser. This girl need to release some emotion or she'll blow up into million pieces.


Last week, this very same day, I could be described as cheerful, crazy and fun! All that has changed. I am now Audrey the moody, depressed and lifeless.


My first placement at SJK (C) Chung Hua Engkilili brought me to know nice colleagues. A bunch of nice people who I can see been helping me to adapt to the life there. So far, that's the only positive thing I can feel being there.


I know, I know. Compared to most of my coursemates, I am considered to be lucky to be placed at a school that could be reached by road. Constant electricity and water supply as well as being able to have Internet and mobile line.


However, being brought up in a family of single parent, I dare to say that I am deeply attached to my mom and my brother. To top it off, my mother suffers from thyroiditis which affects her heart. Her condition is getting worse and she's living alone. It just hurt my heart and soul not to be able to stay with her and to look after her. Every single day being away from her is killing me.


When I'm in Engkilili, I failed to put my heart and soul into educating the pupils there. Their main communication language is Mandarin and being as banana as I am, I can't seem to communicate with them effectively. I had to rojakkan my Mandarin, Bahasa and English just to deliver a simple message. Unlike my last Internship, I have not yet discover that same passion and fire to teach and to love teaching...


My living condition there does not help either. As it is a small town, it is hard to find a rental place where I could walk to my working place. Currently, I am living in a room that was once a store with poor air ventilation. Sun ray and wind could not reach my room. Hence, I need to switch on the light which made the room more humid. I'm anticipating heat-stroke anytime soon. Oh and I can't use any electrical appliances with high voltage or else I'll lose my only electric socket there is!


I guess this is one of the down time in my life. I'm super emo and super homesick right now. However, I do believe in time, it'll heal together with God's help. For now, I guess I need to whine it out.


So, be grateful with your current life if it does not give you any difficulty! Love thy parents cause you'll definitely misses them when you have to be apart from them!

The Much Awaited News

The much awaited news that bound to come has finally arrived. I woke up to a call that excitedly exclaimed our placement's out. Hence, I called JPN Sarawak anxiously. Fifth call and it got through. My placement: SJK (C) Chung Hua Engkilili, Lubok Antu, Sarawak.


The first thing that disturbed me was not its location but rather the fact that it is a Chinese school. I was shocked to find out that I got posted to a Chinese school when I barely know how to converse in Mandarin, what's more to say to be able to read or write in Chinese! However, I am grateful that it is just a four hours drive from Kuching. Road accessible, electricity, water supply, phone line, all there. To add to a bonus point is that the school is located inside a town!


I headed out to JPN Sarawak to collect my placement letter. The attitude of the two officers who handed me the letter made my day worse. FRIENDLY is definitely not a word to describe them. I really felt like a dumb person that got thrown into a cage of vicious lions. All I could do during those 10 minutes was nodding and talking in a soft voice.



Anyhow, I guess I can't run from this fact, no matter how much I wanted to. I am just praying to God to guide me for what is best in my life and to give me the strength to get through this stage step by step. Oh how I miss my carefree childhood life now!

Laksa Sarawak

Being a Sarawakian, there is one food that I am proud to have in my hometown.


Everytime I saw this picture, it always make me drools. I love Laksa Sarawak. The fresh prawns, chicken stripes, beansprout and vermicelli along with its yummylicious sauce.

I never get tired of eating it. Every week, my mom and I would bring my grandmama to eat Laksa Sarawak. We usually go to the one at 3rd Mile Golden Arch Commercial Centre. However, last week, we went to Chong Choon Cafe's located next to the Air Asia's office. Actually both tasted similar but what I like about the Laksa Sarawak from Chong Choon is that it has less coconut milk.

This dish is a must-eat dish when you are in Sarawak, especially in Kuching!
Are you drooling now?

Chinese Astrology

The Dragon Personality
Above all else the Dragon is a visionary with grandiose goals. You tend to boldly confront the mightiest obstacles and accept challenges that seem beyond the reach of others. You are not only decisive but, having made a decision, tenaciously hold onto the idea, moving heaven and earth if necessary, to fulfill your dreams. You are often flamboyant and even occasionally come across as strikingly or mysteriously different or unusual. This can be caused in part by your stylish dress and, or, your high energy level. You may also have natural leadership ability along with this talent for attracting attention. You take pride in yourself and your confidence. It is unlikely people will say you lack self-confidence.

Unfortunately, there are times the Dragon never gets beyond being a dreamer. Perhaps your big dreams are too impractical and you’re just being fanciful. At times you might appear to people as a strange eccentric or just someone who is all talk and no action. You sure can be unpredictable, and we can never know whether yours is the next great idea or just some crackpot scheme.


The Dragon Relationships
What you see is what you get. You tend to be very direct and to let people know how you feel and what you expect of them. In your search for the ideal partner, you might find yourself often hesitating to move forward in a relationship and, or, unwilling to make a permanent commitment. When you do, however, it is your intention for it to last.

There are times when it is hard to live with you. It is not unusual for you to have an excessively high opinion of yourself. This can grate on the rest of us in those moments when it is obvious to us you are superficial and your behavior tactless. And, occasionally, you can be insensitive and offensive in your speech and mannerisms. This is normally not intended but probably a consequence of your being wrapped up in your own thoughts rather than paying attention to our needs. In spite of these tendencies, you are likely to also have a warm, giving personality overall. You can be very generous to your loved ones. Also, that wonderful Dragon dynamism and infectious optimism is likely to keep you in good stead even when your behavior is not the best.


Source: Chinese Zodiac Sign

2011 Resolutions?

It's one week after New Year. Can I still wish Happy New Year!? LOL...

2010 has been a roller coaster for me. For study life, I had a hectic one. It was the final year and the research assigned had really gave me a big impact. Sleepless nights, incomplete data, literature review, citations... However, being able to complete and published it, I could not be anymore happier.

2010 was also the year where I had to bid farewell to my coursemates and those of the same batch. I spent five and half years with them, literally. We stayed at the same hostel, ate together, celebrated occasions together and joined all sort of activities together. Well, I can't say that all of it was of sweet moments but all are definitely worth to be remembered. I would not want to replace my coursemates with any other.

Other than study life, I am also grateful for my family and friends I have around. Be it coursemates or good old Greenian friends. They were the one who made my life more colorful and pushed me to strive for another day.

2010 has been good to me. Thanks for everything and in case I have hurt anyone including you in any other way, I am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I wish 2011 would be better for all!


Oh ya.. My 2011 Resolutions!

1. Stop pushing myself outside my limit by learning how to say "No".
2. Live a healthier life. Less junk food, instants and more exercising.
   
3. Resume my routine to donate blood.
   
4. Spend more time to help around the house.
5. Complete a round of Bible. Gain more understanding on God.
6. Spend more time with friends when they are around. Less "FFK".. xP
   
7. Update my blog at least twice a month.
8. Get mom something nice and memorable on first paycheck.
   
9. Save more money!
10. Get a gorillapod and pancake lens for NEX-3.

Park Da Ye (박다예) – What Should I Do

Park Da Ye (박다예) – What Should I Do (어떡하죠)
[You're Beautiful OST]
CREDIT: flyingcrispi@wordpress [hangul + romanization] , http://eklyricos.blogspot.com


TRANSLATION:
When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears start falling
As you go away to a place where I can't reach you, even if I reach with my hands
I can't catch you, I can only cry


What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can't hear me, because I'm shouting through my heart


All day I try to erase you, but you appear in my mind again
All day I try to say goodbye, but you appear in my mind again
Although you went to a place where I can't hold you
Even if my hand reaches out for you
I can't find you, I can only cry


What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do? I love you too
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, If it ain't you, I can't go on


What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can't hear me, because I'm shouting through my heart

Park Shin Hye (박신혜) – Lovely Day

Park Shin Hye (박신혜) – Lovely Day
[You're Beautiful OST]
CREDIT: flyingcrispi@wordpress [hangul + romanization] , emagasia.com [translation], http://eklyricos.blogspot.com


TRANSLATION:
Wake me gently, My sunshine
Just like princess in the fairly tales, I will close my eyes and wait
When I open my eyes, please stay by my side, love shot
Just like prince in the fairly tales, look and smile at me
Even I do not know that, in my eyes there’s only you
And don’t know that my heart is throbbing, the sound of my heart beats


I wanna love you I wanna be with you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whispering to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you


Reading the magic spells syal la la
Your smile appeared like the warm sunshine
My heart is throbbing again
Now said to me


I wanna love you I wanna be with you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whispering to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you


Wanna love you wanna be with you
I will hug you tight. lovely day please try to feel my heart
Together forever
lalalala lalalala everyday I will bring only happiness
Sweeter than candy I will give my love to you