A Quiet Lunar New Year

It's February! There's Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day! x)

I have been relaxing myself for these few days, doing nothing and stuffing myself with cookies. A pig, I've been and I'm happy as my body finally has its proper rest after struggling hard for the last two weeks. All those rest had brought my jolly spirit back! Begone, pessimism! LoL~

Ah, Chinese New Year! All those yummy cookies' going to appear on my tummy sooner or later.. or on my weighing scale. xP This year, I can conclude that I celebrated CNY "quietly" either at home or at my grandma's place. Since most of my friends are in their final year and many did not come back this holiday, I became piggy at home. >:D

Valentine's Day! Still single.. nah, not unhappy with that condition. Well, maybe cause lots of my friends are still single and I just don't feel the pressure, I guess? Maybe when they start bringing boyfriend during gathering or reunion then would I feel the pressure. xD I guess it can't be rush right? Or maybe it's true after all? About me being super picky? Yikes~

Well, my holiday's out! That's fast!! *sulks* Tomorrow, I'll need to get back to my practicum. I think I'm beginning to get used to 41 + 38 "Dennis The Menace" in the class. Hopefully, I can control their behavior as soon as possible! Jia you~!

Oh and since it's February, anyone else remember another special day beside those that I have mentioned just now? xD

Happy Lunar New Year, everyone! Rawwwwrrr! ^_^

Losing Sight of The Light

It's been 3 days since I started my practicum a.k.a field training. I'm starting to lose the light and dumping myself into the darkness of negative thoughts. The schedules and extra classes on Saturdays. The naughty pupils and how much extra efforts that I would need to give in to make sure that they have the knowledge that they needed. The special case pupils and ways to overcome their difficulties in learning. The Action Research proposal that will due soon..



What if I fail to contribute knowledge into my pupils? What if I fail to find the right subject for my action research? What if I break down mentally and physically? What if I closes my mind and will to continue on? What if I fail myself? What if I fail to get through this?



I am thinking to myself "Maybe I am just afraid. Maybe I don't want to go through this" Man~ I'm becoming pessimist. Oh Merciful God, please guide me through this.