Mixed Feeling

Why am I talking bout this topic lately? Hmm, seems like these few days, this topic is hot. Forum, flashback and stuff. My lecturer once told us:

Love is evil,

Love is blind,

Love is **something**,

And it ain't worth the time.

So, I mean if the couple is happily in love, guess this won't fit the situation eh? I guess life is actually not as complicated as what we thought it to be. Humans make it complicated to live, be it love life, work life or any life at all.

I mean when it comes to love, you can't take third party's opinion right? Like, you're better to analyze the situation and the flow of your relationship. Unless the third party pretty much understand the ups and downs of your life, they don't have the right to judge a relationship right? Especially your relationship? Anyway, this has been long debated and never going to end, I pressume.

I guess that love is complicated eh? I been through a, ONE pathetic and complicated relationship and it was not a nice experience. Hope will be lost, faith will be cracked, and trust will crumble down. When we experience trobule, it is the right thing to seek advise from friends, family or anyone close to you but don't take it as a one-way solution to your problem. STOP, THINK, JUDGE. Then, make the wise decision.

I don't know why I'm being so emotional right now. I'm just having a weird mixed feeling today and it happened to reflect on one certain event. Actually, I managed to get a hold of one of my closest friend and told her bout my mixed feeling today. I'm so glad she is able to understand me and I felt better than few hours ago. She told me that "Hey, I dunno whether if it's the right thing to say but don't try to erase ****** out of your heart. Let it be there, be part of it. What you got to lose from doing that?" This is the first time anyone told me this. Previously, most is like "Forget it. Move on." I'm not a computer nor robot. I don't have the 'delete' button where I can just press it and phoof! the feeling's deleted. So, I am quite relieved that I hang on for quite some time. I know the big 'tidal wave' is coming soon, so better be prepared for it. Sooner or later...

I don't say being single is not nice. It's super cool! Being able to hang out with guy and gal friends without any worries, no jealously and stuff and being free. But sometimes, I don't know. This weird feeling comes once in a while so I just need to express it out. By blogging? Hell, yeah...

I'm blabbering non-stop now, am I? Wargh!! Audrey, get a hold of yourself! Are you being so pathetic??!!! I'm just being random and expressing my opinion and the weirdest topic, weirdest time, weirdest place. But since it's my blog, I can blabber anyting I want to right? I'm okay... I'm okay...